Want to share an amazing news and a fear:
AMAZING: After 3 months of pressing in, asking to be baptized by the Holy Spirit, it finally happened last night after the service!!! I’m glad I stood up when Marilyn asked who hasn’t been filled by the Spirit yet, and Pastor Reece you brought me out of the pew. Dean and Carol volunteered to lay hands on me, after learning I’ve wanted this badly, asked for it almost daily, and have had various pastors and prayer warriors laid hands on me. I knew the steps, but didn’t know what it’s suppose to feel like. When it happened, I was overwhelmed by His love, followed by a heart stopping tear fest…seriously thought I was going to pass out! I continued to pray in tongue on the drive home, and then at home for an hour, I didn’t want to forget that feeling!
FEAR: When I got home, I have to admit a seed of doubt was in my mind that may be I’m just making up my heavenly language, that it wasn’t real, as the whole process is still surreal to me. I know that’s the enemy speaking, I know I’ve rationalized the process way too much before and have rebuked the spirit of fear, doubt, disbelief. Carol encouraged me to press on and let God deal with the crazy thoughts in my head.